Tuesday, March 15, 2011

A Month Later

(Picture from my balcony a few nights ago)

It's a month later. Today is March 15th. I do not know why but I woke up in the middle of the night and now cannot fall back asleep. I leave for work in 4 hours. I could spend time catching up on more tourist events but I do not even know where to begin. The first thing I must begin with is God. I was blessed to be able to go to church this week at The Apostles Church in NYC by Union Square. It really filled the emptiness of my soul to listen to worship and hear the word of God. It's what has been missing here all along. My roommates and I have expressed that we wanted to go to church and even start a Bible study here, but these conversations had never come to action. This city demands your attention and it is physically exhausting to commute back and forth and walk everywhere in the cold weather. When we are in for the weekend, we spend our time asleep, watching movies, or going to a bar on Saturdays to salvage the one night a week we can still be college students. The reality is that we are in this middle ground of college student and working adult, yet the working adult life is the one we primarily spend our time in. This lifestyle has led us to become physically and spiritually drained.

We all decided to meet at church on Sunday at 7 PM. The service began as an unfamiliar feeling. Worship music sounded distant, and the act of worship itself was distant. However, as the service progressed, and the pastor spoke convicting words from the Old Testament and the Gospel, my soul was reawakened to the fulfillment that only God can bring.

It made me realize that life isn't worth living without the guidance of Jesus and that my life means nothing if I do not wholeheartedly give it to Him. What a perfect time of year to spend reconnecting to what truly matters during Lent. I hope that I can start living a more authentic life, learning from my mistakes, as I finish my semester in New York.

On another note, I have started working on the film that Focus is shooting in New York. It's called Another Night in Suck City (thinking they are changing it to Another Night? who knows) It's starring Robert DeNiro, Paul Dano, and Julianne Moore. I am basically a wardrobe PA, helping costume designers shop and transport clothes to set. It is a ton of work but I am loving it much more than working in a cubicle!

Today the Focus interns had a meeting with the President of Production, who handles all matters of Development and what material Focus will turn into a movie. It was surreal sitting at the table with the man responsible for greenlighting all of the amazing movies Focus has made. I learned a lot from him and was so thankful for the experience!

Last week was Spring Break for Baylor (NOT US) but Ashley and Hollyn came to visit, which was so much fun. We ate some very delicious food and had a great time spending time together after being apart for so long!

This week will be a whirlwind but I am excited. It might hit 60 degrees on Friday! Score.

Here's a little excerpt from John 15.

12 "This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lays down his life for his friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command you. 15 No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. 17 These things I command you, so that you will love one another.

18 "If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20 Remember the word that I said to you: 'A servant is not greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. 21 But all these things they will do to you on account of my name, because they do not know him who sent me."

1 comment:

  1. LOVE it Bebe!! Awesome post! It's amazing how everything seems to make more sense when we let God come into our lives and take control! Woohoo praise God! :D